AbOuT Mehaizzz
I'm exhausted, totally drained out. The change of shift is beginning to have its impact on me. My body clock has gone haywire. For the past 3 morning shifts, i've been late for work... *sighs* And to top to my misery, work has not been kind to me at all. Is it just a norm or is it just me?? Its been a long time since i was deployed 'there'. Maybe I have been too pampered doin my daily 'routine deployment' Now the team deployment rest on my shoulders. Responsibilities, decision makings in things which i am not supposed to decide on, shifted to me. wat da hack. i'm not earning dat much pay as "others" to be making dat kinda decision. Apologies to my colleagues if ur names are being put into duties dat u are supposedly to be deployed to. Sometimes it really puts me in a fix.I do admit dat i'm used to taking charge of the deployment when my "head" is not around but yesterday was really a test of my patience. Some people just plain happily take advantage of the situation."Fadz, i wanna do this next duty", "Fadz,i wanna take leave on dis day" .. blah blah blah... and when i replied "i'll see how"... Unneccessary comments starts to come out from their mouth.. Feel like just shutting them off on da spot but i held back my words knowing how sarcastic i can be. They think its so easy to just adhere to their demands. I know they have families etc but sometimes i wish they could just understand that I'm tryin my best to give in to their demands but if its gonna affect the function of da team, wat da hell do they expect me to do?? Others will be red eyed about it if i give in to one person and doesnt to da other. How I really wish that my head doesnt think of me in a way dat i'm able to do all these tasks. Cos all these decisions doesnt just affect me.. it affects everyone around me...
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