Never did I cry in front of you before like I did just now...
I told you not to probe any further but you chose to...
I couldnt take it till I had to raise my voice at you..
But you, being you never gave up on me one bit..

You wanted to know how I felt deep inside though you know...
You didnt wanna assume and you wanted the answers from me..
You did not leave even though I wanted you to..
Your determination finally broke me down...

Do you know how i felt then when I raised my voice at you..
I was filled with anger yet I felt so damn guilty..
It wasnt any of our fault but it was entirely my feelings..
You cant stop me from feeling that way... that small...

Though you assured me that it will not stay that way..
But I cant help but think pessimistically..
Though I understand your position i cant stop asking myself questions
Why must it be that way and lots of other why....

Forgive me cos I know you are in a difficult position yourself..
Cos I understand that its not a choice of yours..
I'm sorry and I do luv you...

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Monday, March 27, 2006 0 comments

JUST HOW TRUE ARE ALL THIS????

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

MY PERSONALITY PROFILE

Your Personality Profile

You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth. While you may not be a total hippie... You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around. You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure. However, you do put some thought behind all your actions. Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!

Your Birthdate: January 19

You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested. You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them. Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others. You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others (very true) Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Sunday, March 26, 2006 0 comments

Guess my leave was fruitfully spent inclusive of my off days today. Woke up in the morning yesterday in order to get my cutie car for her routine check up at the workshop and boy it sure cost me but at the end of it all its still within my budget. (*would be hell lot cheaper if i didnt decide to change the tail light.) oh well... And I guess these precious investment of mine sure know when I have the cash cos now my bike needs to be send to the workshop too... The tyres just dun wanna function anymore.. Khekhe.. Just gotta remember to call the towing crew on Monday.. *sighs*
We were supposed to buy tickets to watch APM but then we changed our plan. Though the initail plans to go to Muzika Records to buy the tix.. but I ended up splurging on karaoke vcds.. Khekhe.. Good thing we didnt buy the tix cos it was such a disappointment(after watching it live on suria)



Next stop was S.P.C.A.... The moment I got there I went excited.. Saw all those poor felines in the cage I just felt like adopting them all.. Wanted to go in but we were half an hour's late.. damn! can only see them from the outside.. Just our luck. With a dampen feeling, we set our way home.. Passed by Lower Pierce where we checked the place out.. Cool. The last time I went there was during my training days. Memories of the time spent there with my squad mates came back.. Funny moments where the guys from my squad did a video clip dancing and singing in their PT attire.. Haha... Now I wonder where I placed the video shots of them.. khekhe..











Capturing the moment.....


Its off to home after that where we had a karaoke-ing session.. Khekhe.. A well-spent day indeed...

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Sunday, March 26, 2006 0 comments

CINTA - Melly Ft Kris (OST Tentang Dia)

menapak jalan yg menjauh
tentukan arah yg ku mau
tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
yg membuat hati lara


di dekat engkau aku tenang
sendu matamu penuh tanya
misteri hidup akankah menghilang
dan bahagia di akhir cerita


cinta, tegarkan hatiku
tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
naluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi
kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa


aku junjung petuahmu
cintai dia yg mencintaiku
hatinya dulu berlayar, kini telah menepi
bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Saturday, March 25, 2006 0 comments

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Thursday, March 23, 2006 0 comments

Love N Like

Something to ponder....

In front of the one we love, our heart will beat fast..
In front of the one we like, our heart will be happy
In front of the one we love, it will always feel like spring time,
In front of the one we like, it will feel like wind blowing from time to time
If we look into the eyes of the one we love, we tend to be stiff
If we look into the eyes of the one we like, we tend to smile
In front of the one we love, we will be speechless
In front of the one we like, we have the freedom to say anything we want
In front of the one we love, we become shy
In front of the one we like, we will show our true self
We can't stare into the eyes of the person we love,
But we can always stare into the eyes of the person we like
When the person we love cries, we will also cry
When the person we like cries, we will try to make that person happy
Love starts from words
Like starts from the ears
So, if we were to stop liking someone that we like
It would be as though we are throwing our ears
But if we were to close our eyes
Love will hence bring forth tears

Every human being will go thru this phase in their life...

***Try to think who are the ones you love, and who are the ones you like

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Sunday, March 19, 2006 0 comments

Dedicated to my irritant..

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole lifeI
'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankfulI found you

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me
I can't surviveI don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows that we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
And care for what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Saturday, March 18, 2006 0 comments

I think I am becoming more and more emotional. Watching the dvd A Walk To Remember and I literally shed tears.. OK fine.. To be specific, I cried badly. Khekhe..

Cry baby agaknya aku. Haha! Although I have watched the story like 3x, it still gets to me.. Gosh.. Very the emo. I cant remember any other english stories that made me cry dat bad... except for hindustan movies ah..

maybe the fact that I watched it by myself made it worse. Each and every scene makes me imagine what if it happens to me.. the people that I luv around me.. Hmmm.. i just have a wild imagination of negative stuffs i guess. Haha!

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Friday, March 17, 2006 0 comments

Its been a while. The week that passed has been alright or so I must say. The intention has been made known to me. Instead of finding inner peace, I sometime find myself in total choatic state of mind. Relieved for him as it is off his chest, but the fear starts to creep to me. Despite the fear. I am very proud of the little things that he does and the action he has taken towards achieving that goal. Such a cliche. Khekhe.

I'm having irrational fear that others will not accept me for who I am, what I believe and even to the extend of how I act. At times, I find myself in a state of mind that makes me incapable of doing things or saying anything for fear of others disapproval. Its irritating and at the same time nerve wrecking.

Maybe I'm just getting paranoid. haha and also plus the fact after nearly working for 6 years, for the first time, I made one of my NS boys cried. *evil grins* Too bad for him cos I don't compromise where work is concerned.

** for those who have watched the show 'Sepet', you peepz should watch 'Gubra'.. I shall not disclose any details. Khekhe...

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Tuesday, March 14, 2006 0 comments

speechless, expressionless.. my reaction to an issue that was brought up.. Thou deep inside it was pure happiness... An issue that came out of nowhere.... All I pray for is things will go well from now on... Inysa-allah...

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Friday, March 03, 2006 0 comments