I'm supposed to be asleep at this hour, but after reading the latest post from Zul's blog has kept me up.. In case where some might be wondering what the heck I'm referring to, here's an extract from his entry... (Zul, hope you dun mind ya bro)

"what if one day you get married... and only found out that your wife is impotent??... what would you do?"

"wat if u are already married and you only realised that you are impotent?"

A normal human's reaction: " No, it will not happen to me." and I guess this issue won't be discuseed with our partners as it may seem of unimportance however it might aslo be too sensitive an issue to touch upon.

My mind keep asking.." so fad.. what will you do"

Honestly, I do not know how to handle this. It can just bring someone down even thinking about it. But to me in the circumstances that you are married?? If the wife is impotent, the chances of husband leaving will be a likelihood. If the husband's impotent? I think its both. The chances of wife leaving is also there, the husband leaving the wife is also there. (as the husband might be too ashamed of himself)

I guess its even worst if you gotta know it before you are married. Can your partner accept the fact? Can we ourself accept that fact?? True enough, if you were to discuss it with your gf or bf now, they might say that its alright and there are other alternatives of conceiving. But note that its ONLY A DISCUSSION. But when it actually happens to you?? Honestly, I don't think those sweet words will be there.

It'll be a lie right if an individual doesn't think twice bout their partners?? I assume even in cases where they are already married. But then, in my views, this is the period where its either you make it together or break it. Like love said to me ,"it'll be a sweet success if both were to pull through it together and eventually produce results." Yupz.. suceess will be sweet if you manage to pull it together, but what if you don't?? Its just gonna ruin somebody's life, somebody's future and definitely my own future if it happens to me. So are we willing to take the risk of ruining someone elses life knowing that our own future is bleak? Although we might wanna take note that its all god's will that it happens to us..


.."sedangkan sebuah perkhawinan boleh tercetusnya percerian akibat kenyataan ini, apatah lagi dua insan yang masih dalam alam percintaan.."

.."will this be a test of true love?"....


*sighs*.... inside my head now are all nothing but just ? ? ? ? ? ?


ps: thanks zul, it's really an eye opener cos I have never thought of all of this before and its a good thing that it was surface up in your post. Hehe.

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Thursday, January 26, 2006 0 comments

Just when I thought the sun will remain to shine, it had to rain today.
Just when I thought my tears would have dried up, it had to fall again.
How long can one hope for happiness to last?
For me, short while. Period.

Did I make a big fuss out of it?
Was I overreacting?
I do not know..
But I dun think so

Was I asking for the stars?
Was I asking for the moon?
Was I asking for the impossible?
No, I did not.

Wished I had the ability
To sleep thru the nite soundly & peacefully
Pretend as if nothing had happened
But I can't...Cos that just aint me

All I asked for is a special place
But I was "forgotten"
You might apologise cos u didnt intend to
But sometimes.. I jus feel lost

Do not ask me how I felt
Cos I'm not good at describing
At times I feel all the love one could ask for
But at times I feel unwanted...

I never doubted your love for me
Maybe I am asking for too much from you
When I know how you feel bout me
But I guess its just me...

I am direct with my words
Not withelding bout how I felt
My words will hurt
So do forgive me...

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Saturday, January 21, 2006 0 comments

Started the day as early as 10 am. Went for a meeting and after that made way to choose the clothes for the photoshoot. Didnt know choosing wat to wear would be a very big headache. Gosh...

Had our late lunch at Fish & Co. Ordered our food, and while waiting for the food, I got my first gift. Khekhe... A simple and nice card with movie tickets.. Yippee!! The show I wanted to watch. "Memoirs of a Geisha"... The food came and I was like..so much ah?? Anyway.. managed to finish up my food except for the green stuffs. Khekhe.. Got my 2nd gift after our lunch.. My heart skipped a beat when I saw the gift... i was like a small child gleaming with joy when I saw the thing... It was the exact thing which I saw the other time before we made our way to Naz's place.. ( guess only azy knows what I'm talking bout) A girl's best friend as some may term it... Khekhe....

After all that excitement, took a walk to digest our full stomaches before catching the movie. It was a good show and I have no regrets watching it. Maybe I'll try to read the book. Khekhe.. Who knoes there are some part which the movie miss out?? So the next movie I cant wait to watch will be the "Da Vinci Code". But that will made its debut on May 19th. Guess that will be a better movie cos both of us had read the book so it wont cause that much confusion. Haha.


It has been a wonderful day.... I'm tired yet happy.. happy.. happy. Sometimes he pampers me so much and yet sometimes he made me have the feeling of strangling him... hehe...

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Friday, January 20, 2006 0 comments

Another stepping stone, another new chapter of my life. This new chapter was celebrated in a small manner wif my family. The thought of my mum going to the extend of buying me a cake to celebrate it wif me, means a lot to me. The first thing she said to me when I got home.." I bought u a cake to celebrate your birthday just in case I'm not able to see u tommorrow. " The fact that she got my bro to come back early so that all of us do not need to stay up late to cut the cake. These little gestures may not matter to others but it matters a lot to me. Tho the past few days I felt as if the sun will never shine again on my life, today they are the one who shed the rays of light. I felt some glimmering hope that everything will turn out fine in time to come.

Happy Birthday to me......


"Age is nothing but numbers, its what inside that counts" .. Thank you love.



ps: To all who flooded my sms inbox.. Thank you for all the wishes. Appreciate it lots. khekhe.

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Thursday, January 19, 2006 0 comments

No updates cos I'm not in the bloody mood.
My wish for the new year to be smooth sailing has already gone down the drain.
Nothin will remain beautiful as how i wish it to be.
I realised one thing.

IT DOESNT PAY TO BE NICE.

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Tuesday, January 17, 2006 0 comments

Ok. Time for an update. My new year's been beautiful so far. ( Hope it will stay that way.) Apart from all that, spent most of my time at home doing productive things. Yeah fad.. playing with my new gadget that I recently bought. That's productive to me. Haha. Addictive. Hard to put it down. I luv my PS2 & the fact that I now have a 40GB portable hard drive courtesy of my brother. What more can I ask for right. Everything is in my room, except the fridge which my mummy is against me buying. Khekhe.. Clever her.

Netball training has started and boy my stamina has gone way way down. Maybe its time I cut down my smoking. Hmmm.....Should I?? Bear in mind that I state the word cut down and not quit. Maybe that will be my new year resolution.. Yeah right. As if. Dream on fad...

Ok. Something happened today. I was riding back home. Road condition: Slippery. Traffic: Peak period = Slow moving. Lucky for these 2 factors that a rider and his pillion escaped without any major injuries. It happened just a distance away from where I was. This brainless BMW driver just made his way out of the filter lane without even checking his blind spot. And I guess the rider's instinct was to avoid colliding into the "luxury car". Result: He skidded. Lucky for him there were some good samaritans (riders) ehemz ehemz.. includes me managed to help the couple. The brainless nikamput driver didnt even bother to stop and say sorry. Loser. The other drivers decided to play music with their horns. Please lah.. How big space can a few bikes take up. We were at the side of the road even a fire pumper can pass thru. (ok lah, maybe i am exagerating, but yeah, the lane is still passable) .

I ask the lady whether she needed any medical treatment caused she suffered minor abrasions, the moment after she replied that she's ok, she turn to the rider and started scolding him for being stupid, blind etc. Mind you, its in the presence of the other riders. And the guy, being a gentlemen (I think) just kept quiet. Taken aback, I felt like telling of the lady that its damn obvious that its not the rider's fault but i decided to keep my mouth shut. Really pity the guy at that point of time. Not wanting to witness another drama, guess the other riders and me have the same thinking; "start your bike and scram" khekhe.

Alright. That's all. Shifting my focus back to my game.

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Thursday, January 05, 2006 0 comments