To you..

Spent the whole day at home entertaining guests. Still in pain.. Had to do the household chores & everything. (wat to do.. the only daughter in da house). Mum gave me massages as and when there's no guests and when I opened up my mouth and complain. Hehe.. I realised that I had lotsa nieces & nephews. Being the youngest cousin from my dad's side certainly has its disadvantages. (money matters la... deficit.. no profit gain) khekhe..

Met up with love after his run for our usual coffee session. Reached home bout nearly 2 plus i think and we continued our conversation on da phone..

Tossed and turned in bed.. But just couldnt sleep. Tears flowing.. I couldn't stop thinking bout our earlier conversation. I can't describe the sadness I felt.. To put it as I sympathise his position.. I don't.. I respected him even more...

Love.. In regards to the conversation.. This is what I wish to say to you...

"True enough, nobody could understand what you're going thru and the position that you're in. Your commitment to your family is something which I truly admire and deserves great respect. Its not easy, I know. As you've said, lots of sacrifices has to be made and it's gonna deprived an individual. Dear .. I'm not sure myself whether I'm up to the task of sacrificing, and I'm not sure also if I'm ever good or fit enough for you. Since we are together, I hope that you could have faith in me, have faith in yourself that everything will be fine. Please do not give up any hope on your happiness. As I've mentioned.. If we're meant to be, we are.. This is something I hope as for now both of us will try to work things out. Though honestly, some of the words you uttered made me lose some hope of us but guess I won't be giving up easily. I wish to go thru this with you and I hope you will give me the chance to. Do spare some thought for your happiness k.. I might not be the one in the future.. But as for now.. I will hold your hand and walk thru this journey with you... This will be our "adventure"..."

posted by DeViLiCiOuS @ Monday, November 07, 2005