AbOuT MeI Wonder
Just when I thought of writing something into this empty space yesterday.. My PC couldn’t start!! Aarrggh!! Felt like a tiny fish lost swimming in the open sea. Maybe it was just not my day.. * haiizz* But lucky me that my bro brought home the laptop!! Hehe… It’s been a while since I wrote into this empty space. The past week for me has not been all bed of roses. I thought everything was alright.. Things turn out to be nasty and to make it even worse.. my backache lately is tearing me apart..*ouch* Last Wednesday went out with my best friend and a friend of his.. It felt awkward though.. Felt like I’m the lamp post!! Hehe.. but it wasn’t that bad.. Sat down at esplanade enjoying our tub of ice cream oblivious to all the couples there.. haha!! My Saturday was well spent. I had a nice dinner outing with a group of people. Started off as total strangers but parted as ??? hmmm… I dun actually have word to describe it but let’s jus term it as friends. Hehe.. It’s a feeling I have not felt for a long time and thinking about that day makes me smile & laugh at the same time. Guess all begins well.. ends well.. *wink wink*
On the other hand.. seeing my friends and colleagues at work makes my day no matter how bad my other days had been. But yesterday I just realized that there are people around me putting up a brave front. Trying to be happy go lucky but only god knows how they feel inside. I see them laughing.. smiling as though their life are perfect but not till a close friend of mine who look up to me as a sister changed my perspective thinking. He actually gave me so much trust and put so much faith in me hoping that I could at least give my point of views. To think that he asked me to read his diary of his life.. his thoughts and emotions that he has been going thru. After reading.. I couldn’t hold back my tears as they jus decided to flow.. I eventually did give my point of views hoping to enlighten him or even help him in that sense but only I know myself better that I’m in no better position to actually to give advises when my thoughts are not even straightened out yet. It then struck to my mind and I started to ask myself questions even when I know that there is no answer to it…
Is life really that unfair?? Why do the bad things always have to happen to kind souls?? How many wrongs must they do before they have the chance to make it right?? How many times must they fall.. den pick themselves up again but eventually fall again?? Why do kind souls have to suffer while all those ‘bad’ ones enjoy their way thru life?? Or is it that it is the destiny of a kind soul to walk thru this kind a path for the rest of their lives?? Hmmm….
Ps: Thank you very much for the invitation of dinner the other day… * grins*
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